Testimonies

Several years ago and for many years my 'life' was just a drunken waste. Constantly throwing away everything good to replace it with shame and embarrassment, jail and a lot of fines. 

 I believed I was saved because I believed in God. But there was no relationship with Him. Only some disillusioned belief that He is a distant God out there somewhere and if I die, He will save me.

A few years ago my first child was born.  Her mother and I never married and when we separated she was basically just used as a hate tool against me. She wouldn't let me put my name on the birth certificate and so I had no rights and no money for a lawyer.

I started trying to get sober and was doing better. I filled out some paperwork to try to get my name on the birth certificate and was going to do what I could to be in that little girl's life.

Within just a few months I get arrested for a DUI #4.

It was devastating. With that charge is prison, loss of my driver's license FOREVER and no judge in their right mind would give me any kind of shared custody, maybe some supervised visitation, if I was lucky. I remember in the middle of that talking to God, asking where are You and how could you let this happen. I was getting better. And I just had a daughter - and now You let this happen.

During the 11 months that court took, I finally did start living sober. (I was trying to show God I really did want to get sober.)  I believed in Him, just didn't think He could or would change my circumstances. But with the cheapest attorney costing 6 thousand dollars, and the public defender telling me "I better just plead guilty to try to get some leniency", It was obvious I was going in it "Alone."

          On my way to the final court with nothing but a prayer, I told God if He would save me from this, I would serve Him with my life. And If You let me keep my driver's license, I'll serve You with that too."

When it was dropped to a reckless driving, My mind was blown. I was guilty...They had video and everything needed to close on me...It didn't make any sense, and it made perfect sense. But He didn't leave any room to believe it was some crazy coincidence. 

          When I drove away from that court My heart was on fire. How could He of been so kind. Why would He do that for me? But it changed my life ,the way I live & It changed the way I pray. On the way home, I was praying "God, it seems like You just showed me that If I'm living Your way and my request are made for Your Glory - That inclines Your ear. God bring my daughter here that I can raise her for Your Glory. To Be Your Disciple."